ein wenig drama muss es sein

33 days before china..

visa belom diperpanjang,
visa cina uda dapet.
auslandssemester bescheinigung belon dapet,
pihak shenyang lelet.
ujian Bauko (yang gara2 Pfosten-Fuck-Fassade sem lalu ga lulus) sem ini ga pasti,
dosennya ga buka ujian, gw minta ujian 'privat', si dosen ganteng blon bales email.
musik-musik Estland menggugah hati sore ini, kangen Estland.
minggu Paul Kalkbrenner di Berlin.
besok Jacob van Rijs seminar kesini, MVRDV impian banget deh.
hari jumat dosen ganteng no. 2 ngadain konsultasi,
siapa yang mw dateng harpitnas gitu? GW!
barang gw yang setengah gudang ga tau mw dititipin sapa.
gw kangen rumah.
barusan nonton BIUTIFUL, keren. tapi sedih.
kemarin sesenggukan nonton "die Kinder von Paris".
blon mulai nyicil belajar, project menyita waktu banget.
ga jadi beli tiket Air Asia buat Feb,
orang yang waktu itu gw pinjem kredit karte na ga ngangkat telfon gw, promo uda expired.
semuanya expired.

What love? FOOD?

‎"Jangan pernah membuang mimpimu karena aku. Jangan pernah memikirkan aku, tetaplah lakukan apa yang kamu inginkan. Cinta itu bukanlah 2 anak manusia yg berjalan menelusuri jalan yg sama dengan bergandengan tangan. Namun walaupun sekarang berjalan seorang diri di jalan masing-masing pada akhirnya juga akan saling menemukan jalan menuju dia yang dicintai. Maka, teruslah berjalan di jalanmu & aku akan menelusuri jalanku sampai aku menemukan jalan kembali kepadamu." -FN-

It was Daniel's status that i read this morning. That remind me of something called.. errr.. love.

After my big crash in the last 5 months, I commited my self not to have boyfriend. I pushed my self everytime there is a chance like "Eww love! what kind of food are you?". I commited my self not to have boyfriend unless he's the one. Which sounds more unrealistic to have boyfriend in my age right now.

Eventhough my 5 years plan that i've made when i was 17, was getting married in the age 22, which mean next year! Which is totally IMPOSSIBLE. Because.. First, I don't have boyfriend. Sorry. First, I don't want to have boyfriend. Nope. First, I can't imagine what kind of husband I want. Or.. maybe the type of husband that I want in the last 5 years and now are different. The image of husband that I want is changed. Or.. The world has changed me into "independent woman" (the image that I've always wanted since last 5 months!). Yes baby, I'm changed.

Back to topic food, I mean love. I mean you. I changed my self every... I don't know. Maybe tomorow, I'll decided to have boyfriend. Maybe not till the end of my 25. I'm unstable. Judge me. But what we have right now, let it be just like that. Don't ask why, don't ask my feeling. Neither my self can tell what it is. Lets see what life lead us to be.



Spent most of my easter holiday sleeping, watching movies, sleeping, alot of ice cream and at saturday Hoa and me went to Insel Poel by bike. We rode for 42,6 km in 2 hours. Oh yea! I become sporty!We only laid down on the beach for 2 hours, gettin light tan and go back. the weather is still cold for wearing your bikini and swimming but it was quite comfortable for riding bike, not too hot not too cold, a lil bit windy.

It was so relaxing! We cancelled Poland because my friend had an accident while she drives. But Poland is still our next destination when i got the time!



grabbeb from http://theothersideofeverything.com/flip/2008/01/four-reasons-why-nuclear-power-is-stupid/

Four Reasons Why Nuclear Power Is Stupid

1. Nuclear waste is a dreadful poison, inimical to all forms of life and impossible to control.

2. There is no guaranteed, failsafe way of disposing of nuclear waste. None. Just doesn’t exist. Even in Britain, we have earthquakes, and we certainly have lots of underground water. It doesn’t matter how deep you bury it, or in what container, it’s inevitably, predictably impossible to prevent leakage and the consequent immense, lasting damage to biology.

3. The nuclear power process is fraught with pollution potential. Just making the stuff creates a million hazards. Where there are humans, there are errors.

4. The nuclear power process is fraught with security issues. I don’t need to explain this one, do I, with eastern Europe awash with people selling enriched uranium. Nuclear power = bombs.

Building new nuclear power stations is going to seriously affect our environment, not just of Britain, but in all probability the entire north western region of Europe, and possibly even wider geographically. Beyond that, we are looking at pollution issues which will outlast current society by multiple thousands of years. Cracks in society, wholesale movement of populations due to climate change, the ending of entire nations, and the draining away of funding – all of these things are going to happen, it’s just a question of when.

With our future so completely unknowable, for politicians to be convinced of their rectitude in making this blind and idiotic choice shows me how barren our leadership has become. While this is something I have long suspected in the UK, with misguided plans for ID cards, and the national travesties of corruption in all its forms playing out before us, I now know that I cannot remain here. Or else, I cannot remain silent, save for creating entertainment for the temporary distraction of the privileged few.

Did I ever tell the story of how my middle name became Radioactive? To paraphrase Blair, this is no time for soundbites. I feel the heavy, glowing hand of Homer Simpson upon my shoulder…

Homemade Pizza and Police

I had one of my uncommon weekend in Wismar last weekend. Me and Hoa went to a friend from our chinese language class. He baked pizza. We are welcomed with the best pizza in the Wismar and good wine. Long story but short, we were about going to dance, and in Wismar its not so easy to find a good club (if there is no students party!). Mensakeller was shit and Block was closed. On the way back home, we met a friend who said that there is A24 in Wismar. So we decided to go there, Hoa drived the car eventhough she was drinking in the past 2 hours. BUT THEEEN, she hits another car when she's about to go out from the parking place. And we were loud and fightin about the car and somehow the police came. And we were wrong. Hoa needs to do alcohol test, a friend from us too, me not, coz i dont have driving license in Germany. Its my second experience 'gettin in touch' with the police in Germany after my light accident last year. Bye bye Hoa's driving license, and Hoa I know you can live without car! Im proud of you baby!


the art of rocker doing yoga


I never thought that getting an internship for summer is a pain in my ass. I sent many applications to many offices in Germany and China. And what I got? Nothing. Some sent me back that they didnt have any free position or they dont need me. Some just stay in silent.

My days has been very nice lately. I enjoy the smell of spring. The beginning of this years, fyi my trip to Italy, motivated me to always have my appetite for life in bad or good condition. Met alot of amazing people inspired to be a better person. Stucked in a drama condition in the last 6 months in the end of 2010 is the way i learned life. Never regret something you done in the past, learn from it.

And now, here i am. Sitting under the sunlight, writing my blog, enjoying my saturday, saving up some money for easter holiday (Im going to wander Poland for a week!). Just had my deadline yesterday, slept 12 hours after the presentation done. Fuh. But I enjoy it. For sure.


these videos make me craving more and more roskilde. next year baby next year!!

getting a new haircut is the new addiction


i guess i have to wait a lil bit longer to cut it again. i bet i will never grow my hair long. i just cant resist to cut my hair after it grew 1 cm!

Aktzeichnung 3#

the left one is sexy, i did it when i was in second semester of my architecture study. it was a selective class. the class was actually very interesting. we went there, sit and draw. we never get critics or tips how to draw. you feel it with your hand, see the progress every week through your drawings. you got 15 minutes for each drawing for a long pose and only 5 minutes for a quick pose.



and after almost 3 years in Germany, and after visited Berlin many times (heyyyyy im going to Berlin just for party!!), i finally went to Judischen Denkmal. the famous spot for taking photos for every tourists. the place was mysterically peace, it has something. and it sure to be the best place for taking photos!




Marshall hatte Geburstag letzte Samstag. Ich und Hoa wurden selbst eingeladen. Wir sind einfach nach Berlin gefahren, um Marshall zu besuchen. Die Idee kam einfach so. Marshall hat Kuchen gebacken, David hat Nudelauflauf gekocht, Michal hat Salat gemacht und die Mädels haben Wein mitgebracht. Sooooooooooooo ein wunderschöne Abend. Nachdem Essen haben wir Trinkspiel gespielt, haben einpaar Geheimnisse geoffnet und mittelnacht sind wir nach ein scheisse club im Ostbahnhof gegangen. Die Nacht war trotz super obwohl die Disko scheisse war. Ah! Die Highlight war vintage Fotobox in der Warschauerstr.!


Und irgendwie ich mag polnische Leute. Michal und seine Freundin kommen aus Polen, die sind von Couchsurfing zu Marshall gegangen. Michal war schon mal in Taipei gewohnt und deshalb scpricht er verdammt gute Chinesisch. Und die Freundin studiert Jurnalistik in Warschau, sie kann richtig gut tanzen! Wir waren die nächsten Tag auch in Koreanisch Resto, Arirang hiesst die, und vollllllllllllllllllllllllll gegessen!


_Alles gute gute zum Geburstag nochmal liebe Marselino! Ich liebe dich und hab immer dich geliebt! xoxo_

kaleng, gelas dan kendi

just the works from last semester. i mean last last semester. im doing fine now, back to wismar already, this holiday was totally changing my mood. the view of my stay in wismar, not to say wismar is boring, but i've been here too longggggggg that i want to get out. as i come to wismar after a month travelling out of wismar, i was like "damn, wismar is not that bad!". of course, i was welcomed with beautiful sunset and it was a sunny week. but after a week, when the sun hiding away and the wheather back to normal (cloudy rainy cold day), i breathe and think "it will be your last semester in Wismar, think positive, you will miss it someday!




searching what the life called "pleasure" with all the tasty food in Italy, cultural and architectural visits, enjoying my "me" time after all the shits that happen in 2010, meet new friends (hopefully), brave girl by travelling with no one else but me

ask Elizabeth
hah! just kidding. I dont know it just come into my mind. To be frank, its inspired by Eli.

18 days mama mia!

most: Hostel, in some city: Couchsurfing

I feel so excited of my trip yet a lil bit worried about it. I dont travel so long before and alone!! My God, i think i just wanted to get out of Wismar when i booked the flight. Blame it on all the stress from exams (I failed one, but passed one from the 5 sem, so its no problem). Maybe when i come back, i will think differently about what life for. Or inspired to write a book (Hah! Always!). Or understand his feeling. Nevermind. But im so excited about it. Really.

when i've booked my flight, my roommates reaction was like "WHAT!ARE YOU SERIOUS?ITS GONNA BE EXCITED" and some of them thought it is a bad idea to travel alone "IT WILL BE BORING" they said. But hey, who cares about what other think about you. You'll never know what can the world will be like. Im craving about it. Although its just Italia. And about my parents, they will kill me if they know i will travel alone. Its a secret for them.

"BE CAREFULL" my friends said. Bring Pepperspray. Always put money and ID card with you. They even teach me how to protect your self from a man. They know i will ruin my trip because of my stupidness. I love my roommates.

wish me luck! :) and happy holiday anyone.


why all the tickets for a music festival are so fucking expensive? and why all the cool festivals are on first week of july? where we still have to do our exams................!!! after i finish my bachelor, i will definitly go to that kind of festival!!